Saturday, February 6, 2010

57 Months Ago Today...

It may sound like a long time ago to most people....5 years ago on May 6th, Todd went to heaven. Still feels like yesterday. One of the biggest snow storms we've had in awhile hit this weekend. I had trouble getting to sleep last night. I used to love the feeling with a big snow storm when everyone, including Todd, was home. It was a great feeling. It was a safe feeling. It was a warm feeling. I couldn't find that last night, or today. All the kids are here, safe and sound, but Todd is not. It's difficult to describe. Just really missing him today. I don't feel safe. I don't feel warm. I feel lost and very alone. Even my rose bush is covered in this snow! I'd do anything for a rose from Todd today, or better yet a hug from Todd!

I keep thanking God that He promised He will never leave nor forsake me. I'm so thankful for Him. "Gotta keep singing..."