Abe got his driver's license today. Nathan is scheduled to take his test Dec. 5th, and Trina will be getting her's next September. That makes three new drivers in less than a year! yikes.
These are the days and times Todd talked about that he was certain would bring excitement to our family. Today wasn't that exciting with him not here to enjoy it with. While waiting to take the driver's test, the boy in front of us was escorted by his father, who seemed more joyful than his son when he passed the test. Both of them wore huge smiles. The boy behind us came inside walking on air and repeatedly telling his mom, "Call Dad! Call Dad! He has to know I passed!" She smiled (ok, beamed) and walked outside to call his Dad. I choked back tears as we waited for Abe's license. Abe wasn't smiling, but he was happy he was getting his license. I wanted to call his Dad and tell him. Instead I swallowed hard, prayed silently, and on the way home told Abe that his Dad was very happy and proud of him. Abe mumbled, "Yea, whatever."
It just stinks. I hate living here without Todd, without the kids' Dad. It just stinks.
Sorry for the complaining. I should be in "thanksgiving mode," but I'm having a difficult time this week. Thank you for your prayers. God is good.
2 comments:
Wendy,
Hang in there! We will have at least two new drivers in the near future, and possibly Leigh Anne this summer...yikes!
Maybe you and Abe could have told Todd together? Or would he have thought that odd? How are the kids doing? Are the open to sharing how they feel about Todd? Just wondering, as I'm sure they must miss him terribly as well.
Thanksgiving will come, one day...maybe not this side of heaven...but someday you will all be rejoicing and giving thanks to the Father who loves all of you with His entire heart.
Praying for you and your dear family.
Love in Him,
Beth
Don't apologize! It is a hard time and you do hate living without the kids' dad--but they are glad you are here- and so are we!
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